Saying Goodbye to Blogging

by - January 28, 2019


A few years ago I would never have guessed I'd be writing this post.  Even now, sitting here at the kitchen table where I always blog, it feels strange, but right.

How did it come to this, completely giving up something I love?  Some of you may have saw it coming, the lack of posts over the past months.  The many breaks I've been taking.  I was waiting for the vigor, the spark to come back.  It never did.  Maybe it never will.

I thought of just ending on my last post.  Making it a goodbye.  I knew I couldn't do that, though.  I'd feel like a left something undone.  So, here I am.

When I started blogging in 2015 with my sister it was fun, it was a way for us to connect while she waa away at college.  We posted maybe once a month.  Not much.  In the spring of 2017 I started to be more active, to learn about blogging and meet people through it.  When I started my own blog, February Fairy, in the Fall of 2017 there was nothing I loved more.  I put my whole heart and soul into my posts, writing late at night and early in the morning.  I felt so alive.  I never thought I'd stop.

I'm a highly creative person.  Anyone who knows me knows I jump from one project to the next without stopping to breath.  I like to have spare time to explore my interests, to evolve and change.  I think it's important, especially when you're young, to not hold onto things too tightly.

When I started to feel burnt out with my blog I figured it was writer's block, in which case everyone says, "just push through it."  I did push through, I worked hard, I found some of my previous love... and then I crashed.

Blogging was the last thing I wanted to do.  Even after Math.  I didn't enjoy it anymore.  Not only was I not blogging, I wasn't being creative in any other way, either.  It was like this giant elephant had suddenly been dumped in my lap.  I couldn't lift it, I couldn't get around it - I was stuck creatively.

I've begun this post in my head countless times.  Trying to find the exact words to explain why I'm giving up something so important.  Other bloggers you may think I'm giving up too easily.  Maybe you're right, maybe you're wrong.  All I know is that blogging has become a handicap to me.

With my 16 birthday coming up I don't want to carry any baggage into this new year.  I want to explore the world with new eyes again, and not worry about growing my audience.
I'm learning that being invisible in the internet world can actually be really refreshing.  There's no pressure, no comparison, no competition.  Just me, and my life. 

I'm beyond thankful for those of you who I've made friends with.  And for every single person who ever read my blog.  You are fantastic.  I'll still be on Instagram* and Pinterest, if you want to stalk me from time to time.  And I'll definitely be reading all of your beautiful blogs, because I still love the blogging community.

I cannot believe I'm saying this.  Goodbye, February Fairy.

*Also, you'll be able to learn my real name pretty soon.  

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27 comments

  1. Awww Ella I'm sad to see you go cos it's been awesome to have you but I really do understand what you mean and it's ok. I'm so happy you did a goodbye post though!! It's good to see people be honest and do what they know is best. I'll be eagerly following you on ig definitely 💛💛💛

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    1. Thank you so much, Lisa. 😭💕 Me too, it made the process feel complete. You're so kind, thank you, girl!

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  2. It'll be sad that you'll be leaving the blogging community. You will definitely be missed, but I definitely get you on why you stopped. I've had to take many blogging hiatuses to recharge my creative mind. I respect your decision, and if you ever come back I hope you're able to find a renewed joy for writing and blogging.

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    1. Hi Hannah! It's been a while :D I didn't even realize you were a blogger until the other day when I found your blog link on Pinterest. And you follow Ella 0-0 It's a small world hehe xD

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    2. Aww, Hannah, I'm sad too! Thanks for your understanding. Thank you for your kind words.💛

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  3. Good Bye!! I'll miss you!
    Lily

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  4. Aw, I’m sad that you’re leaving! But I definitely understand why - you shouldn’t keep doing something if you don’t love it anymore. I wish you well in your future endeavors, though, and you’ll be in my prayers! <3

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    1. You're so nice, Nicole! Yeah, I really need to get away from the internet. Thank you for always commenting the nicest things on my posts. I always appreciated it.

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  5. Aww we'll all miss you so much, Ella, but we understand! Hopefully this decision will be for the best, and if you ever regain your spark, we'd love to see you back :D Best of luck with the coming year <3

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    1. Thank you, Isabel! I'm going to miss all of you, too! 😢 Yes! If I feel drawn to return I definitely will. You too, girl! 💗

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  6. Aww, I'm sorry to see you go, but I totally understand. Mental health is important. Love you!

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    1. Thank you, Zella! I can't believe how understanding everyone is. I'll miss all of the support. 💕😘

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  7. Bye, I've enjoyed reading your blog.

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  8. I'm so sad to see you go, but I'll definitely keep following you on Instagram! I hope 2019 is a wonderful year for you. :)

    -Clara <3

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    1. Me too! But I really think it's for the best. I hope we can keep in touch, you're such a sweet girl. 💓✨ You too!

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  9. Awww Ella. I’m going to miss your posts. But I totally respect where you’re coming from – internet invisibility is a precious, precious thing.
    I’m glad to know you’ll still be on Insta (we can be friends there instead : ) Wishing you many, many blessings for 2019.

    cheers.
    k.

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    1. Keira, as I wrote this post I thought, "Keira is going to understand completely." And I was right! I'm going to miss blogging sometimes, I'm sure, but I think it is for the best. YAY! I really hope to stay in touch with everyone. Thank you, sweet girl. 💖

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  10. I've loved connecting with you through your blog(s), you've always been so real and genuine which is so inspiring and refreshing, but I 100& understand and respect your decision, hopefully we can keep in touch on Instagram!

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  11. Awww, I'll miss reading your posts! I always found your thoughts insightful and helpful, and reading your posts always makes me happy. Your enthusiasm for life is contagious. XD But I understand your choice to quit. :) I'll definitely be keeping up with you on Instagram! <3

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  12. It's been a blessing to have you around all these years. YOU are an intelligent young lady, smart, thoughtful and beautiful. Always carry you with you. This is bittersweet. At such a young age the fact you acknowledge this is not the path amazes me. I wish the best for you. Keep in touch with me on Instagram for you are lovely. Your words will have forever impacted me.

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  13. wow, this is... amazing. props to you for having the strength to walk away and pursue better things. <3

    you are strong. you are brave. and you will come back to your creative roots. I will always support you!

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  14. Oh my gosh Ella!! Sad that you're leaving but also it's good you're not forcing yourself to blog and letting yourself explore and do other things. :)

    Nabila | Hot Town Cool Girl

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